Sudah.

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Sudah usap itu air mata
Pilu itu hati, tidak bantu
Sudah henti itu air mata
Ingin saja, omong itu kosong
Sudah, sudah, kata pertiwi
Angkat kepala itu,
Dan pikir
Angkat tangan itu,
Dan buat
Sudah itu saja

Ellen, 20/10/13, akhir seminar BWCF2013

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VerseTime: a child of curio

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curio
source: x

my heart soars with a will to know,
eyes wander like a nomad, searching,
the fingers linger, touching and feeling
it is not unimaginable, a mockery of mind perhaps
may it be intangible like an unreachable dream, but
it pulsates, grows, unstoppable like air in the lungs
there it is, always there,
waiting for acknowledgment, playing hide and seek
it goes, on and on,
a beginning at its end

ailend. 2010/09/25.

VerseTime: maybe enough

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maybe-enough

maybe nice is not enough
maybe good is not enough
maybe having friends beside you all the time is not enough
maybe having dreams is not enough
maybe living the life like everyone does is not enough
maybe living up to the expectation is not always enough
maybe is not enough
a certainty is also not good enough
maybe living a life just as is not that good enough
and dying is not an option
and life is options
and there is ‘if’
if it is not good enough and do what is.
escaping from reality but at the same time you know you are living in one is not that good.
maybe this way of thinking is not good.
maybe i am not good enough.
maybe i just don’t know what is enough.
maybe i am just searching for something that should not be enough because enough is not the answer.
yeah.

ellen. Oct 18, 2011. 7L’s Office.

VerseTime: home coming

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hellogoodbye
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hello, goodbye
i want to fly high, up in the sky
i can dive into the sea, deep til the bottom ends
i will climb the mountain, scream for the world to hear
i want to roam the forest, go, go, go, until darkness reign
i can dig the earth, to hide, you can’t see me
i will, oh, but i will
come back home

*dedicated to mom, who worries too much 😀
*4 september 09

VerseTime: hitam putih yang abu abu

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hitam putih yang abu abu
hitam, hitam yang benar kelam
adakah?
putih, putih yang benar silau
adakah?
hitam itu jahat!
hei, jahat katanya!
apa benar?
dan putih itu suci?
hei siapa kau yang menentukan?
apa kau hitam dan jahat bisa berkata itu?
lalu kau putih dan terus suci?
abu-abu
itu warnaku, bukan hitam, bukan pula putih
aku baik tapi siapa bilang aku tak jahat?
aku beragama tapi adakah aku percaya Tuhan?
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Cerituit: Filosofi Bebek

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So on January 15, 2011, I wrote Filosofi Bebek on my Twitter account under the hashtag #kwek!. A total of 14 tweets, with every tweet separated by #kwek!. Wanted to share it here, it’s in Bahasa Indonesia, edited for style and added some missing words because the limited 144 tweet letters.

And, uh, it’s about life and duck.

bebek
source: x

Filosofi Bebek
oleh @erulenonk, 15 Januari 2011

Aku cuma perempuan
yang tidak istimewa.
Tidak kaya,
tidak rupawan,
tidak pintar.
Pokoknya tidak ideal.
Aku cuma perempuan.

#kwek!

Tidak muluk mimpiku sebagai perempuan.
Aku tak butuh barang mewah,
justru kudamba barang
biasa yang kan mengukir sejarah hidup
bersamaku.

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